It's funny how you get emotionally attached to beats... I guess it's almost like giving birth to a child... or raising a character inside a role playing game... I've created 12 beats (some are just loops that need to be further fleshed out, and some are more fleshed out as a part of an actual track) so far and man I can't give up any of them. heh heh. But then I can't help but think they all suck... *SIGH*

On a more technical note, I'm beginning to understand what composers mean when they say "this song was written with singer [insert singer name here] in mind." Well, lemme rephrase that... I knew what it had meant, but I didn't knw that it applied to non melodical "singers" like MCs. Apparently I was wrong. In working on one of the tracks I took the opposite route that I would normally take in working with MCs which was to have them write their lyrics without a beat. What happened then was that each MC had their own vision of what the track was going to be like and their rhyme patterns and voices were tuned to that virtual track. I was then able to understand what each MC was trying to go for and make a beat to match their individual style... Although it may seem obvious in hindsight, but it's a rather interesting phenomenon to me. As interesting as the picture of the high rising fountain I took at the point during the 3 rivers ars festival where Boney James was performing.

That brings out another question that I ask myself all the time... How much further can I go as somebody who's never really had any serious formal music training... Can I really compete in the music industry with this presumed "talent" and "ear" that I only think I have? I mean, all these things I have learned on my own through personal musical evolution may be something every single freshmen in a music college learn within the first few days in Music 101... How pathetic would that mak me? *SIGH* Man, I'm one insecure musician... What I need is to just try my talent out there in the open to see how it compares... Hmmm...