In so much pain right now... It's not like I don't go through this every year, but it seems extra painful this year... For what reason could that be? Perhaps cuz I feel as if I have no where I can seek comfort in... Nobody to seek guidance from... Nobody to be able to share the pain with... Well, that has always been the case, tho... There was not one person in my entire DJ career whom I could share this aspect of my life with... It's so painful I could cry like a baby... Now is one of those times you know you're gonna make it through just fine, but yet there's that tiny bit of fear in the corner of your head that whispers "But, who says this ins't that final moment you're actually gonna fail.". Music has always been like that to me... Is it supposed to be this painful? I dunno... I haven't the slightest clue...

Pain of creation.... I suppose it's pain people with the luxury of being able to call such thing "pain" suffer from... If you happen to see any type of artist on the street, give him/her a hug... Not that people with other professions don't need support, but I know from first-hand experience that artists go through a lot of things... and although it's true that ultimately they themselves are responsible for enduring and progressing to the next stage, having constant support and encouragement is vital to the overall process in my opinion. If you don't want to deal with that, then just don't make friends with artsy people. :P